curious?

Getting Situated.

Superficial Beginnings.

How deep does it go? Am I ready for what the future entails?

Seeing as this is my first entry, I don't know how to go about wording this. Do I even serve a purpose?

I've been questioning a lot of things recently: What is life all about? Do I have a purpose? What role do I play in this 'small' world of ours?

Right now I feel like I'm lost. Like I can only give a half-hearted answer to these questions. I don't know what I want to do with my life after college and my graduation date is slowly creeping up onto me.

I always thought that if I just work hard and trust in اللهُ سبحانه وتعالى (Allah, Glorified and Exalted) that everything would work out fine. Don't get me wrong—I certainly haven't lost faith, but I don't feel like everything is working out how I had envisioned. I'm in my Junior year of college now with nothing to show for it. I had a fall out with computer science and I don't really know what direction life is taking me right now.

I know that I want to leave an impact on this world by helping others. Yet, at times, I don't even feel like I can help myself.

After I started thinking about projects to work on I remembered that I've always wanted my own public blog. I feel like this fits me better though. A public journal for others to read and reflect on.

I know I've been beating around the bush and jumping here and there, it's all intentional. Once I'm ready I'll 'speak' a lot more about it.

I don't know what I'll talk about in my future entries, maybe I'll use this as a way to get my words 'heard' without actually having to talk to anyone.

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